Meditating v1 - Relationships

can't sleep yet.. and as usual..
i'm in a reflective mood..
thinking about "relationships"...
over analyzing...

a relationship (in the context of love - whether family, friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, spouse, etc.) is indeed very complex...

it takes an endless effort and countless factors to keep any relationship "alive"...
otherwise, it will slowly wither and die...

putting effort and doing one's part to nurture the relationship is a choice...
it is a decision that we must make not once but on a daily basis...
it is a commitment that we must value and renew everyday...

if we feel that the relationship is becoming weak, it must be our responsibility to nourish it with love in different forms...

and we must remember that the complexity of a relationship is brought about by the individual complexity of the people involved in it...
therefore, efforts must not come from one party only but from everybody...

if one has decided to sever from the relationship...
then it will be like a complex machine with a missing part...
no matter how polished the other parts are, the machine will still definitely not work...

and most importantly, a relationship must be guided by the Author of Love... God.

Peace.Love.Happiness.




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Grad Student #Hugot

I was ENTERING the campus this afternoon (on my way to my class) when I realized that a lot of people were actually going the opposite direction - they were going OUT of the campus. Well, it's not because of any untoward incident inside the campus like bomb threat or earthquake. They were going out because they were supposed to - it was past 5 in the afternoon, the sun is slowly setting in, and the moon is peeking out. But me? I am one of the few people who are walking towards the campus to attend my class. It has been like this for that past few weeks since the classes started but maybe I was just so preoccupied that I was not able to pay attention to it until today. And as I was walking, a very common Filipino line (from a movie) occurred to me, "Papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na ako." Rephrasing the line, I then kept telling myself, "Pauwi na sila, papasok pa lang ako."

I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this #hugot (hashtag hugot) line. Not only graduate students who have classes at night but also those whose work is scheduled in American/Western time (usually BPO employees).

Time has changed, indeed. Not even the setting of the sun can dictate what we should or should not be doing. Not even the appearance of the moon can tell us that we must sleep.

But when it comes to sleeping, all I can say is:



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Peace.Love.Happiness.

Happy 9 years of Twisted Thoughts!

It's been 9 years since I started this blog.
Its contents and how the mood of this blog changes somehow represent the changes that happened in my life. Although I'm not able to update this blog on a regular basis, I still feel like this blog has somehow became an extension & witness of my life in  its own little way.

Happy 9 years to my twisted thoughts!

Thankful...

My random thoughts...
     being thankful...
          being faithful...
               being hopeful...


I have a lot of things to be thankful for from the past year.. 2014 brought a lot of challenges in my life but the fact that I was able to survive and to move on means I have conquered those challenges.

I can still remember the things that made me cry, made me upset, made me feel like I wanna give up... but what I remember more are the blessings that God gave me and my loved ones. I know I am more of a pessimist that an optimist but looking back at how blessed I was in 2014 reminds me that life is about having faith in God. It is about believing that Someone up there knows the best for us. Yes, we may have plans for our life. I do. In fact, my plans are very detailed. But I try my best to always remind myself to surrender everything to God - do what I can do and surrender the rest to Him. Whatever happens, whether it's according to what I have in mind or not, I have to keep my faith that God's plan is always the best for me. I may not like it but I have to trust that it is never the worst.

It is not easy to always think positively and that good things will eventually happen especially for people like me - idealistic, pessimistic, cynical (IKR). But having faith in God helps a lot. My faith in God is the only thing right now that keeps me sane and makes me smile. Yes, I wanted to have an ideal life in this world but I have to constantly tell myself that it is impossible because the only "ideal" place we can be is with God. This world is just temporary. But that does not mean we can't dream or aspire anything nice for our life, of course not! Still, we must work and persevere to utilize the life given to us by making the most out of it. We must make the most out of the blessings God has been giving us - whether it's financial blessing, physical, mental, etc. - we must put them to good use. But then our goals must not make us blind to God's promise of heaven with Him.

We might fail from achieving the things that we want but in the end, what matters most is that we tried our best to live a good life not just for ourselves but mainly for Him.

This post might raise questions about faith (or religion maybe) but I won't argue with anyone. These are my personal thoughts about my faith. Like what I have said, my faith in God keeps me sane. It makes me thankful. It makes me hopeful. And these feelings allow me to feel joy and happiness and in return glorify and praise God no matter what the circumstances are.

Peace.Love.Happiness.