These past few months, I've been thinking a lot about wedding preparations. I've been saving images for wedding essentials like gown designs, themed decors, etc. I keep on daydreaming about that day when I can get to wear my dream wedding gown and look like a queen in white. These daydreams made me feel frustrated as the days went by. Because I think about it too much, anxiety ruled over me. I worry that my dream wedding day won't come. I started having negative thoughts about my partner. Weeks passed by and my obsession with weddings grew as well as my frustrations until I came to a point where I don't understand myself anymore - I don't know what I want anymore - do I want to get married now? What about my priorities?
After trying hard to sort things out, I came to a realization - I want to be engaged, plan my wedding, make my dream wedding happen, BUT I don't want to get married yet.
Yes, confusing right? It took time before I figured that out. Just like other women out there (perhaps), I am excited about the thought of wearing that diamond ring in my finger, saying yes to my man, the cheers from our families and friends, the grandeur of a dream wedding day but I never thought of being married AFTER the wedding day. This realization helped me focus on my goals and priorities. Surely, getting married is part of the list but I know for sure that I don't want it for now. I must always remember (and all women out there as well) that the wedding day is just an icing on top of the cake, it's just the sauce on the spaghetti, creamer on the coffee - in short, wedding is not equivalent to marriage. Being excited for your wedding day does not mean that you are ready to get married.
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Peace.Love.Happiness.
